COMING TOGETHER--29

Today is Wednesday. I feel much better. I feel good enough to go to work, although my mother will probably object to that.

I'm going to go to Baylor Plano to get a doctor who will follow up on my condition. The issue behind all of this is what caused the breakdown in my immune system. I don't know.

Meanwhile, my mother is doing okay, but lazy. Yesterday she did nothing but lay around and eat chocolate. I will see if she wants to go with me to Baylor Plano; I expect that she will just to socialize with her doctors.

Sometimes I think my mother being in some sort of care facility would make her interact with others more than she does, make her get up and walk around more than she does. I need more time away from her than I've had lately.

This is Thursday. Yesterday for dinner Mom ate nearly nothing but ice cream and cookies. So overnight she slept 13 hours. She didn't want to get out of bed. I had to turn on the light to interfere with her laziness and make her get up. She did eat well, but she's lost something.

I believe all that sugar is effecting her. She claimed I was talking with someone this morning when I was not. She's in one of her, I can do whatever I want, moods. I know I can't oppose her as actively as I'd like to, as it doesn't get through to her.

I'm feeling better everyday. But as I get better that makes me different from Mom more and more. As I as healthier she becomes slower, losing whatever she had yesterday. The contrast between us gets greater and I want to leave this situation, even though I know I can't. So I have to put my life down again and again.